stage three of total bandom surrender involves a terrifying amount of sincerity

You guys, no joke, I almost started crying after I watched part 2 of the Gerard Way NME.com interview. I just. Okay, three-quarters of my crazy emotional response might very well be due to all the real life stuff that is going on right now, which I haven't talked about in livejournal at all -- basically, bad things involve surprise hospital stays and emergency surgery in my family -- which I don't know quite how to deal with. But even if that's the source of most of my response, there's still... Gerard Way, you guys. I'm so overinvested in him it's not even funny. No matter how much I love celebrities, there's usual more distance for me than this, but with him? I love him, and I want him to be happy, and watching him talk about the love of his life and loving his band and sucking dick and the worst times in his life and his depression and self-destruction and his anger and his fears of being nothing, being invisible and not making a difference--

God. Just, God. Gerard.

--And then in the middle of writing this entry, I went to rewatch the "Famous Last Words" video again. SIGH. DOUBLE SIGH. Especially noting all the times the shot is framed with Gerard singing in the foreground and Mikey right in the background.

I think I'm going to use one of my due South icons with this entry, just because none of my bandom ones can really fully contain the amount of WOOBIE in my heart right now.

I need to go to bed.

Aaaaaaaaaaand on a completely different yet still-MCR related note, ficbyzee and I were talking some more about how we need/want/crave Bob/EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD. Which apparently led to me telling her how I wanted a scene between Bob and Brian, a little while after Bob joins the band, with Brian checking in with him about how everything is going and Bob saying something about it going good, the guys welcoming him, really making him feel part of the band, blah blah whatever, and Schechter is like, "wow, dude, that's great, they made me wait way longer before they started inviting me to the orgies." And possibly Bob stares at him for a really long time because he honestly CAN'T TELL IF HE MIGHT BE SERIOUS.

Anyway. shleemeri has totally seconded my call for a bandom dudes first received blowjob meme! Somebody should totally get on it. Look, this is my patient face. *waits*

In conclusion, ( OT3 )