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Today is my 7 year fandom/lj anniversary. On Feb. 2, 2002, I posted my first Smallville story to the SSA, and posted my first entry in this journal.

Seven years. That is forever, you guys! I was a little baby underage faking my way to eighteen back then! In those years there's been three major fandoms, three colleges, and too many awesome people to even start to name.

I'm going to take a shower now, and then I'm going to clean a little bit, and then I shall sit down with my new Umbrella Academy comics (I finally got the three latest this weekend) and my computer and the internet and just be happy I have you all.

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PS, On an unrelated note, does anyone know where I could find a working torrent for the entire season of Middleman? And, actually, where all the screencaps of the show are?

I think lots more people should join overheardfandom, because the idea entertains me to no end. And by "people" I mostly mean "people in bandom" because, um, you guys are really entertaining! And SGA is boring. Yes.

I am exhausted/miserable/achy/various other adjectives that come along with getting my period. Ugh ugh ugh. I am also craving Coke like a motherfucker, but there is none in my house and I doubt I am going to put on pants and walk all the way to the store for some. SIGH. My life, so hard, etc, etc, you know the drill. I am going to be really emo and cry about it now and you will all feel guilty for living too far away to come and wildly indulge my whims. So there. *moans, whines, blah blah blah*

Although I have to admit things are not all bad, okay. The rumor about Pete Wentz acting in the next Diablo Cody movie, for example, is pretty much pure gold. Made of HILARITY, in fact.

Ugh, moods suck. Maybe I will try and write something tonight.

Last night I had a dream where cidercupcakes had written a novel that could basically be boiled down to "Napoleonic Wars meet Mr & Mrs Smith". It was pretty awesome -- competent married Regency spies wooo! -- and now that I have woken up I am kind of bummed it doesn't exist.

In the comments to the last entry I was telling kristiinthedark about how I was thinking about Ray and Fraser in a blackout. It would be while they're busy doing something, maybe for a case, examining some large and busy room or something. The lights go out, it's pitch black, Ray is twitchy and keeps moving around, bumping into things and cursing, until Fraser tells him to quit and stay in one place. Which Ray is probably bitchy about, but he stays still anyway, and Fraser asks him to keep talking, so he can find him by the sound of his voice (like Marco Polo). So Ray is standing still all alone in the pitch black and forced to just keep talking to himself about stupid things, until Fraser finds him, and that shuts him up because Fraser's right in front of him, so close you can feel the heat of his body and his breath. And then THEY KISS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, in the dark, and it is awesome until the lights suddenly go back on again, and then they pull apart and are awkward and stupid and pretend for days/weeks that it never happened and don't talk about it at all.

Sigh. Booooooys.

In news that will shock absolutely no one, Paul Gross is still distgustingly attractive. Um, ignore the last one, though. Stick to the candids of "my god."

I spent an unhealthy amount of time yesterday looking through Amazon.com and making lists of all the dvds I would need once I was filthy stinking rich and things like food, rents, and debt were not an issue. Heroes! Arrested Development s3! How I Met Your Mother! Grey's s3! Deadwood! Rome! Doctor Who! NCIS! Joan of Arcadia! Newsradio! I want it all. Is that so wrong?

It's too hot for September, and I'm really really excited about my Latin textbook coming in the mail.

pearl_o: I think the lack of any real conflict in ds fandom for so long now is affecting my ability to deal with conflict in other fandoms, and searching out bitchy hate.
ficbyzee: *giggles*
pearl_o: no, seriously, i think i was starting to forget that feeling, how overinvested you get.
pearl_o: *feels random anger that isn't actually directed at anyone but feels righteous anyway!*
ficbyzee: awww. *pets*
pearl_o: (john/rodney GRAR!)

Hahahaha, I know how totally irrational it is and I kind of hate myself for it, but it's kind of nice to have a pairing to focus your hate on that strongly, you know? It makes things so much simpler.

I'm trying to think of something to start wank about in due South (and when I say wank, I am not implying that recent meta discussions in other fandoms have been wank, I'm just looking for the most entertainment value). It's hard, dude. We're all so polite it's kind of disgusting. I mean, I might look at people funny when they admit they honestly don't like Vecchio at all or when they refuse to read any het whatsoever, and they might think I'm crazy when I post Vecchiocest or wrinkle my nose at Ray/Ray, but we all tend to be nice about it.

(If anyone mentions the Ray/Ray wars at this point, I am going to go insane, I swear to god, because YES, at one time Due South was a wanky fandom, YES we all know our sordid history and NO it has almost nothing to do with how the fandom works or has worked for at least the past three and half years I've been here.)

Saturdays are so BORING, oh my GOD. People! Please! Come entertain me, I beg of you! Bleeeeeeeeeh.

Um, yes.

A couple things:

A.

pearl_o: man, plotty fic is so boring.
ficbyzee: *giggles*
ficbyzee: statements like that are why I heart you.
pearl_o: *skims boring bits for yummy f/k bits*
pearl_o: *beams at you*
pearl_o: it's truuuuuuue. plot = the BORING PARTS OF THE STORY. i don't get why people are always like "hey, stories these days have too much good parts and not enough boringness."
ficbyzee: *hee hee*

B.

Have now gotten through 2.13 in The Office. I realize it doesn't work after Booze Cruise, but I kind of liked it when you could pretend that the film crew were all total Jim/Pam shippers, and that Jim and Pam really were somehow just friends and it was all being totally created by the magic of editing. Because that would be awesome.

C.

I love my boys so much it hurts sometimes.

D.

I am in the sort of mood that often leads to me writing death, break-up, and/or cheating fic. Rescue me with the power of porn! You don't want me to crush Ray and Fraser's hearts, do you? [aerye and katallison, you are exempted from this question.]

E.

Yesterday I realized there was a bunch of chocolate hidden in the back of the cupboard. As soon as my roommate's feminist research group leaves this evening, it is BROWNIE TIME.

( Thinking about fannish goals for 2007 )

I am feeling weird and twitchy and restless. I don't know what to do with myself! Hmm. If anybody wants to ask me questions (either in batches of five or just, you know, however many), consider this your invitation.

(This entry is mostly about boyslash, and not so much femslash or het, which I've read less and not noticed the issues as much.)

A conversation over in kalpurna's journal about power dynamics and ass-fucking here -- while pretty interesting on its own! -- has sent my thoughts on a vaguely related tangent. ( Read more... )

I am having an WHEEEEEEEE OTPs!!!! day. This is always fun! I approve!

*thumbs up*

Obviously, the first otp to come to mind for me is always Fraser and RayK. Because, frankly, I have spent three years of my life now doing very little else but thinking about their true true true love. It has got me this far! I'm not just going to stop now!

Fraser, as you know, is possibly my Favorite Character Ever OMG. And Ray Kowalski! Oh, Ray Kowalski. You're jumpy and testy and asshole-y and sweet and lonely and the opposite of subtle and you are full of hidden depths. When we meet you, you are so in love with your ex-wife it is painful. By Call of the Wild, you are so in love with Fraser that it is still painful, but in a much, much, much happier way, because Fraser loves you back. You are one of his Rays, and he hurts when you hurt, and he pats you on your back and wishes he could make things better for you, so much so that he goes for Bob for advice, which, seriously.

(Will any fandom ever present me with anything that gives me more pure happiness and joy forever than RayK's line to Thatcher about knowing who you are? It's possible -- me and fandom have years in front of us -- but I can literally not imagine it.)

You are my BOYS, my prickly damaged beautiful goofy boys, and I smush you together FOREVER.

F/K is not, however, the only OTP that has been on my mind lately, because I don't know if I've mentioned it in a while? But I really love Farscape. And for all that it's not a primary fandom of mine, I honestly cannot think of any relationship pretty much ever that I am more invested in than John and Aeryn. I am irrational on the subject; I am *this* close to saying MEANT TO BE in all seriousness, but luckily I'm not quite there. There is basically nothing I do not love about them, and they leave me wordless. Just -- John and Aeryn! SMOOCHES. SO MANY SMOOCHES. OTPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

The thing is, though, that OTP doesn't quite feel like the right word, despite everything I just said, because, well... okay, the thing is, I am a generally monogamous person in pretty much both the literal and metaphorical sense of the word? But with Farscape, how can you not be poly? There is canon text or subtext for pretty much any two non-puppet characters on the show (and sometimes human-puppet pairs, as well). My utter JOHN/AERYN SQUEEEE does not detract at all from the fact that every other pairing in the world is totally there. Even in a fandom like due South, where I do write and enjoy odd pairings at time, I've never been this free of jealousy about it.

In conclusion, Farscape is an orgy. I blame Chiana.

One of the interests I have listed in my profile is "historical aus." When one is scrolling very quickly down the page, it is possible for this to look, for a brief second, like "historical anus."

Finally: See the icon phineasjones modified for me? I've made it my default for this month; really, it fills me with a strangely intense glee.

Theory That Struck Me Today:

Caroline Morrison on "ReGenesis" is what Weir on SGA would be like if Weir was totally awesome.

Another Thing About Heroes::

Man, I know all the troublesome stuff about, you know, being totally evil and stuff, but nonetheless, I am in love with the relationship between Claire and her daddy. Because, seriously, I have a button a million miles wide. fox1013 and I were talking earlier about daddy issues; while much of fandom seems to have the "I've been a bad, bad little kid. Spank me!", we both have more of the "DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL WAAAAAAAAAH" thing going on.

There are lots of relationships that hit this button for me, but the classic is Jack and Sydney Bristow from Alias, which is my one true gen relationship FOREVER. Lilith and David on ReGenesis actually made me cry last night, in episode 1x08. Buffy and Giles, on the times when I'm not sexualizing them at all, can fulfill the same thing for me, despite the non-related-ness. Oh, and BSG: Kara and Adama are my favorite relationship on the show, even when I'm conflicted about everything else.

(Actually, a lot of the things that make me cry fit here. S2 Buffy and Giles, yep. Jack and Sydney, yep. My first year away at college, I came home and watched the freaking Land Before Time with my family and cried when Sarah the three-horn was reunited with her daddy. I don't even know!)

(And in comics! Babs and Jim Gordon! Roy and Lian! *sniffle*)

Fraser Plus His Rays = HEART. The Mountie and his boyfriends -- seriously, what is better than that? I propose: NOTHING. Not a single thing.

Therefore, aerye wins for post of the day.

For some reason I want more kidfic. I KNOW, what the hell, right? I think I just like seeing Fraser not even as a father, but as a beloved honorary-uncle/family-friend type? Imagine him with Ray Vecchio or Ray Kowalski's kids, and tell me you don't see it.

Tomorrow I am going back to Eugene. My lease lasts until the 31st, but my family is coming on Sunday to move me out of the apartment, because they were all week and wouldn't be able to come later. I am still answering a bazillion ads, but I don't have housing pinned down yet, so my stuff will be going in the garage here until I move into a new place.

My sister and I have been watching a bunch of SG-1 as well -- Upgrades, The Fifth Race, 2010, Fire and Water, more that I am forgetting. I am never going to be fannish about it, but it's awfully fun, and much less boring than anticipated. I like Sam the best, I think.

Fraser Fraser Fraser porn porn porn. Two great tastes that taste great together!!! Yes.

I mentioned this a couple weeks ago, but I am still desperately craving reading lots of snow kisses. Outside, with the snow falling on their hats or their hair, their faces maybe getting red with cold -- Mmmmm. That never gets old.