prison for jerks

Here are my top three OTP moments of all time:

1. Kirk/Spock, Star Trek: The Search for Spock. "Jim. Your name... is Jim." (Honorable mention: the very end of "Requiem for Methuselah.")

2. Fraser/Kowalski, due South, "Call of the Wild". "We still partners?" "If you'll have me." (Honorable mention: Same episode, RayK in the car with Thatcher at the stake-out.)

3. John Crichton/Aeryn Sun, Farscape, "Icarus Abides". "I'm very angry." (With a honorable mention going to "A Prefect Murder". "I'm not sure I have the strength to miss again." "I think I'm just a bad shot.")

You guys should do the same thing in your journals, too, because I would really like to see other people's answers! It's interesting when you sit down to do this, because there are pairings I consider OTPs where I do not have the same sort of specific moment crystallized - Bones/Booth, for example, or Angel/Danny from Hot Fuzz, are both pairings where I OTP them so hard it's sickening and flail over how much they love each other omg, but don't have the same sort of definite moment for, just that more general squee.

Sometimes when I am having a bad couple of days, there is nothing more comforting than thinking about how, right this minute, way off somewhere in northern Canada, Benton Fraser and Ray Kowalski are off somewhere being happy married old dudes in love in some cabin they probably made with their own hands.

RPF can break your heart (as bandom as shown beautifully, but also, Demi/Selena, what happened?), but some things last forever.

( Ray Kowalski, king of all he surveys )

Our TBPID! came today yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! happy_coconut and I both got Ray masks, which makes me really happy because the Ray one is so pretty and girly! We haven't watched it yet, because she just got home from work and we have chores to do first and such and such. BUT IT IS HERE AND IT IS AWESOME AND I AM HAPPY.

(I am still just a tad disappointed that the dvd doesn't include the videos and making-of-the-videos for the Black Parade singles, but oh well.)

I was going to do the "this day in history" post, but it turns out the backread of my journal is amazingly boring. Here, though, I'll link you to last year's entry from July 3rd, because that one is still entertaining: it is a list of utterly ridiculous pieces of fanon in dS fandom that gave me great joy.

Hey, you guys will still love me if I never write porn again, right?

( LEA I MADE YOU A DUE SOUTH REC LIST! )

With all that said, the most important thing to remember is this: Ray/Ray is like Patrick/Mikey ONLY A MILLION TIMES WORSE. Anybody who tells you differently is LYING.

Yesterday someone on my friends list -- someone I know just from bandom -- was talking about their fanfiction plot kinks, and one of the things they mentioned was when people get punched in the face. Those escalating arguments, where it's all meaningful and personal and it just crosses the line and ... yeah. I was like "OMIGOD YES" and then I had to go straight to youtube and rewatch the beginning of Mountie on the Bounty Part 1.

MY BOYS. THEIR LITTLE FACES. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBIES.

Seriously, you know, I might not think about them every day or talk about them often any more, but Fraser and RayK still own a piece of my heart, and I don't think that is ever going to change.

So all you people who agree with the first paragraph but don't know due South? You should go watch that clip. MY OTP, IT IS BREAKING UP OH NOES. THE AAAAAAAAAANGST. LUCKILY THEY HAVE AN ENTIRE TWO-PART EPISODE BEGINNING WHERE THEY LEARN HOW MUCH THEY NEED/LOVE EACH OTHER AND HOW TO WORK TOGETHER AND ALSO HAVE SOME UNDERWATER KISSIN'. Also a lot of stupid plot, but that's okay, because it ends like this:

( BOYFRIENDS )

...Yeah. Due South isn't a fandom you ever really leave, I think is my point. You might get distracted by other stuff, but it's always there waiting in the back of your brain. FRASER I STILL LOVE YOU. ♥

Plans for the rest of the day: homework; watching more season two Torchwood; maybe going down to Safeway to pick up my prescriptions; answer feedback. Blah blah blah blah boring.

Also, unrelated to everything else in this entry, I find myself wanting to go "...FUCKING JARED" every single time Gerard does something stupid or annoying. And then I laugh some more. *loser*

So DS Match just started over at ds_flashfiction yesterday -- four stories so far! Lots of awesomeness! You should go over and vote for TEAM ANGST BECAUSE IT RULES, yay!

The thing is that actually when I think about it this is probably the first I've really been reading dS fic since I got into bandom, and, uh. Perhaps reading the really well-written Team Angst fic where ( spoilers )

wasn't my best idea ever? Just maybe?

(It is very good, though! If you don't have my exact issues, I rec it! Go vote!)

Of course, it did lead to this conversation with ficbyzee:

( Cut for chat! )

Anyway, back to my fluffy bunny fandom! It's kind of weird that I went and read Pete/Mikey to cheer up, considering that it is not a pairing known for happy endings, but it's weirdly comforting. Especially since I know they get Alicia and Patrick in the end.

Things that I love and want more of:

+ Gerard/Lyn-Z (pictures AND fic, man)
+ Mikeyway has always been a girl
+ Wee!Ways gen
+ Gerard talking about musicals
+ Everything that is over the top and melodramatic and banter-filled and self-indulgent in the WORLD

Hi.

--And the thing is, if this is my actual new fandom, I am going to be pissed, you guys. Because! What! Look, I have been in fandom not quite six years now, and as many other shows or things I have read/enjoyed/talked about in that time, I have had two Real Fandoms. I had two good years with Smallvile and Due South and me have been OTP for three and a half plus now. And I am HAPPY with that! I have no need for a new fandom! Me + dS = the love that never dies!

(And, you know, leaving SV and getting together with dS was some VERY STRESSFUL times in my life. liviapenn had to give me a speech about the Circle of (Fandom) Life at Escapade that year, all "sometimes antelopes fandoms have to die so new ones can live!" The guilt, you guys.)

All of which is to basically say: OMG GERARD WAY STOP IT WITH YOUR LITTLE FACE ALREADY OKAY JESUS CHRIST.

...Of course it's also possible I've overreacting for no reason. I do that sometimes. Maybe in a week this obsession will leave me and I'll settle back into my normal ways and just click on your guys' cut-tags and give you thumbs up occasionally. I could deal with that.

(Shit, I really do need more icons. Just laughing Pete and WWII Gerard is not cutting it. HEY, if someone wanted to make me a Gerard/coffee or Mikey/coffee or Ways/coffee OTP icon, you could be my bestest friend, okay?)

secret ps to spes: how do you feel about getting together this next weekend? It could be like your second, totally way more lame birthday party.

IN CONCLUSION: STUPID BOYS IN BANDS, I LOVE THEM.

I am unhappy. Tell me a story about Fraser and RayK and their pure woobie love?

Alternatively, tell me to tell YOU a story about one of my fandom, ala etben's new meme! See examples here here here here. I can try due south, 6 degrees of ds, farscape, grey's, any fandom you're pretty sure I read in and have significant knowledge in.

Last night I had a dream where cidercupcakes had written a novel that could basically be boiled down to "Napoleonic Wars meet Mr & Mrs Smith". It was pretty awesome -- competent married Regency spies wooo! -- and now that I have woken up I am kind of bummed it doesn't exist.

In the comments to the last entry I was telling kristiinthedark about how I was thinking about Ray and Fraser in a blackout. It would be while they're busy doing something, maybe for a case, examining some large and busy room or something. The lights go out, it's pitch black, Ray is twitchy and keeps moving around, bumping into things and cursing, until Fraser tells him to quit and stay in one place. Which Ray is probably bitchy about, but he stays still anyway, and Fraser asks him to keep talking, so he can find him by the sound of his voice (like Marco Polo). So Ray is standing still all alone in the pitch black and forced to just keep talking to himself about stupid things, until Fraser finds him, and that shuts him up because Fraser's right in front of him, so close you can feel the heat of his body and his breath. And then THEY KISS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, in the dark, and it is awesome until the lights suddenly go back on again, and then they pull apart and are awkward and stupid and pretend for days/weeks that it never happened and don't talk about it at all.

Sigh. Booooooys.

In news that will shock absolutely no one, Paul Gross is still distgustingly attractive. Um, ignore the last one, though. Stick to the candids of "my god."

I spent an unhealthy amount of time yesterday looking through Amazon.com and making lists of all the dvds I would need once I was filthy stinking rich and things like food, rents, and debt were not an issue. Heroes! Arrested Development s3! How I Met Your Mother! Grey's s3! Deadwood! Rome! Doctor Who! NCIS! Joan of Arcadia! Newsradio! I want it all. Is that so wrong?

It's too hot for September, and I'm really really excited about my Latin textbook coming in the mail.

So today I've been thinking my and etben's theory of Ray K. and Fraser ended up as Those Old Married Queers Down the Street. I know a lot of you find the "Arctic Winter Murder/Suicide TRAGEDY ON THE ICE!" theory more convincing, but I can't help it: I find it too horribly, horribly charming. ( I am vaguely ashamed of this )

MAN, I am in such a weird mood. I want to write! But that doesn't seem to be happening. I want bittersweet and tentative Fraser porn. Or Vecchiocest! Kowalski boxing! I want Fraser waking up for the first time in the new and unfamiliar bedroom after sleeping with his Ray. I want thoughts about RayK's eyelashes and rough stubble, Fraser's crooked smile and strong arms, Vecchio's long loose limbs and the way he shakes his head at Benny, all love and affection and acceptance of every weird and annoying and crazy thing about him. I want Thatcher being red-hot and bitchy and competent and in-charge and sparking with Fraser all over the place during season 2. I want fic that makes my insides feel the same way that screencap of Fraser and his boyfriends in the hotel room does, or the one of Frannie and Vecchio hugging in the interrogation room in Heaven and Earth, or that look on Fraser's face when he watches his parents at the end of CotW.

I want it all, you guys. *sighs dreamily*