f/k snippet

[schmerica]

china_shop asked for "Fraser/Kowalski, exasperated" and ... hmm. I'm not sure quite where this came from.

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"What it comes down to, Fraser, is -- this isn't what I expected outta my life. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I'm not saying that's a good thing. I'm just saying that's a true thing. This was not going to be my life. I was going to have my girl and my house and my stupid job and my obnoxious kids and everything was going to be hunkydory and *perfect*. I saw it all.

This is not what I ever wanted. You are not anything I ever wanted. None of this, not a single thing.

No, shut up. Shut *up*. You promised to shut up and let me get through this. I let you talk all the freaking time, you can be quiet for five minutes.

So. Okay. My point was--

My point was.

The thing is, Fraser, you're a freak. A bonafide freak, grade A choice meat. You're crazy. You drive *me* crazy. You're not -- jeez, you're not the sort of thing a guy sees coming. No way, no how.

I bet you didn't fall asleep dreaming of some skinny Chicago cop when you were a kid either, though. So maybe we're even there.

I kind of lost the point I was trying to make here, I guess. But I guess it's just that everybody wants to be happy. And if the things that I thought I was going to get weren't what I got, that's okay, because maybe the things I didn't ever want are the things I really do want. And if that's Canada and deaf half-wolves and unhinged partners and, and-- and the whole shebang, then okay.

I can deal with that, Fraser, and I can make the choice here. That this is what I want. This is where I want to be.

Fraser?

Fraser.

Fraser, I'm done now. You can talk."