f/k snippet

[schmerica]

china_shop asked for "Fraser/Kowalski, exasperated" and ... hmm. I'm not sure quite where this came from.

*****

"What it comes down to, Fraser, is -- this isn't what I expected outta my life. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I'm not saying that's a good thing. I'm just saying that's a true thing. This was not going to be my life. I was going to have my girl and my house and my stupid job and my obnoxious kids and everything was going to be hunkydory and *perfect*. I saw it all.

This is not what I ever wanted. You are not anything I ever wanted. None of this, not a single thing.

No, shut up. Shut *up*. You promised to shut up and let me get through this. I let you talk all the freaking time, you can be quiet for five minutes.

So. Okay. My point was--

My point was.

The thing is, Fraser, you're a freak. A bonafide freak, grade A choice meat. You're crazy. You drive *me* crazy. You're not -- jeez, you're not the sort of thing a guy sees coming. No way, no how.

I bet you didn't fall asleep dreaming of some skinny Chicago cop when you were a kid either, though. So maybe we're even there.

I kind of lost the point I was trying to make here, I guess. But I guess it's just that everybody wants to be happy. And if the things that I thought I was going to get weren't what I got, that's okay, because maybe the things I didn't ever want are the things I really do want. And if that's Canada and deaf half-wolves and unhinged partners and, and-- and the whole shebang, then okay.

I can deal with that, Fraser, and I can make the choice here. That this is what I want. This is where I want to be.

Fraser?

Fraser.

Fraser, I'm done now. You can talk."

Comments

[nifra-idril.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey -- I love your Ray. This is so very exasperatedly Ray, which is appropriate given the request. *grins* But I like it. "This is where I want to be" makes me do this little hand to heart grinning thing. *snugs you*

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

*snugs back*

[china_shop]

Oh, this is cool! I can just picture Fraser listening and wanting to argue and not sure where this is going and trying so hard not to interrupt even when he really really wants to! And this:

You're not -- jeez, you're not the sort of thing a guy sees coming. No way, no how.

I bet you didn't fall asleep dreaming of some skinny Chicago cop when you were a kid either, though. So maybe we're even there.

and this:

maybe the things I didn't ever want are the things I really do want

and this:

That this is what I want. This is where I want to be.

Are just wonderful. Thank you! *loves*

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Yay! I'm very glad you enjoyed.

[marialima.livejournal.com]

oooh, woobies!!!! This is so great for a Thanksgiving morning.

In the immortal words of the great bard: You can't always get what you want...you get what you need. Guess Ray figured that out. ::g::

You rock!!!

Happy Turkey Day, sweetie. :)

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks! I hope you had a good holiday, as well.

[silverakira.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, I love this. I just -- eeee! I've always loved it when people explore this concept, of Ray's life with Fraser not being anywhere near where Ray thought he'd end up and vice-versa.

So this:

And if the things that I thought I was going to get weren't what I got, that's okay, because maybe the things I didn't ever want are the things I really do want. And if that's Canada and deaf half-wolves and unhinged partners and, and-- and the whole shebang, then okay.

and this:

That this is what I want. This is where I want to be.

Makes me so freaking happy. [wibbles]

[hearts you so much]

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Heh, well, dude. Seriously. Fraser is like the least likely thing to imagine *ever*, isn't he?

*hearts you back*

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

oooh, pretty. i have happy ears now. *g*

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Aw, happy ears are the best kind! Thanks.

[serialkarma.livejournal.com]

eee, so cute!

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Yay, thanks!