Yesterday, while I was working on Let Me Go On, I was talking to several people on yahoo messenger while I was working on the revisions. I mentioned to both Nifra and Dira the weird sense of discomfort I felt about labeling the story het.
Now, granted, the story contains noncanonical sex between two characters of different sex and thus every requirement of the het label -- but somehow my brain still insists on thinking about it as gen, I said.
Dira and Nifra both gave that the doubtful lack of response it deserved.
The interesting thing, though, is that it's not as though I'm opposed to het. Um, duh, I love het; the fact that all of my OTPs are slash does not change the fact that I find male/female relationships appealing and interesting and try to make people write them for me whenever possible.
So my antipathy toward the label is a matter of this specific instance, and not anythign more general. And during the discussions with Nif and Dira, it occurred to me what the sense of discomfort probably is mostly derived from, which is this:
I feel really weird about making a canonically gay male character have sex with a girl.
Now, obviously, in the case of this story, the het sex is all backstory, done as a teenager (not to mention that it's not, you know, good). It's not like Duck is falling madly in love with a woman and dedicating his life to her.
Besides, I think one of the main things that makes slash interesting to me is that I think sexuality is a fairly fluid and flexible and unpredictable thing. If I think a character who's only been attracted to girls in the past may fall in love with a guy -- hell, if I think it's possible I might fall in love with a girl someday -- then the other side of the coin is there, too, isn't it?
None of that really does anything to offset the profound discomfort, though. Because the flexibility of sexuality aside, the idea of writing het about gay characters comes across as just straightening them up and denying their queerness. It's automatically something political, rather than "just a story," and the politics involved are disturbing.
Honestly, I'm not sure I would click on a Wilby Wonderful story marked as Duck het. In Buffy, I totally judge those people who ship Tara with male characters. I'm pretty sure the situation would be the same if I read in more fandoms with canon queer characters. The exception, of course, is that it depends on who's writing it. I don't trust fandom in general enough to read this specific kind of het blind, but if I trust you as an author? I'm going to take the chance. Hell, I might even anticipate it, if I think you're going to do it well, go through all the implications, and not be generally stupid about it.
But, really, that's another one of those fandom truths: there's nothing I won't go along with, if I trust you as an author; too many bizarre or stupid things get pulled off in amazing ways.
Now, granted, the story contains noncanonical sex between two characters of different sex and thus every requirement of the het label -- but somehow my brain still insists on thinking about it as gen, I said.
Dira and Nifra both gave that the doubtful lack of response it deserved.
The interesting thing, though, is that it's not as though I'm opposed to het. Um, duh, I love het; the fact that all of my OTPs are slash does not change the fact that I find male/female relationships appealing and interesting and try to make people write them for me whenever possible.
So my antipathy toward the label is a matter of this specific instance, and not anythign more general. And during the discussions with Nif and Dira, it occurred to me what the sense of discomfort probably is mostly derived from, which is this:
I feel really weird about making a canonically gay male character have sex with a girl.
Now, obviously, in the case of this story, the het sex is all backstory, done as a teenager (not to mention that it's not, you know, good). It's not like Duck is falling madly in love with a woman and dedicating his life to her.
Besides, I think one of the main things that makes slash interesting to me is that I think sexuality is a fairly fluid and flexible and unpredictable thing. If I think a character who's only been attracted to girls in the past may fall in love with a guy -- hell, if I think it's possible I might fall in love with a girl someday -- then the other side of the coin is there, too, isn't it?
None of that really does anything to offset the profound discomfort, though. Because the flexibility of sexuality aside, the idea of writing het about gay characters comes across as just straightening them up and denying their queerness. It's automatically something political, rather than "just a story," and the politics involved are disturbing.
Honestly, I'm not sure I would click on a Wilby Wonderful story marked as Duck het. In Buffy, I totally judge those people who ship Tara with male characters. I'm pretty sure the situation would be the same if I read in more fandoms with canon queer characters. The exception, of course, is that it depends on who's writing it. I don't trust fandom in general enough to read this specific kind of het blind, but if I trust you as an author? I'm going to take the chance. Hell, I might even anticipate it, if I think you're going to do it well, go through all the implications, and not be generally stupid about it.
But, really, that's another one of those fandom truths: there's nothing I won't go along with, if I trust you as an author; too many bizarre or stupid things get pulled off in amazing ways.
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27/3/05 17:11 (UTC)(And it's a lovely story! Which I should have said earlier!)
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27/3/05 17:22 (UTC)*nod* And that was definitely part of my intention, with this specific story -- which, yes, is another reason the label felt wrong to me.
I think really part of the problem is that the het/slash/gen labels are broad enough that different people have very different uses for them. There are people who want to know if there's even the slightest bit of slash or het content in a story (whether it's so they can avoid it or so they can seek it out), and there are people who just sort of want the general tone and theme, perhaps, of the story. So it depends on the definitions you find useful for yourself; the fact that there's sex in there makes it het, or the fact that it's not a pairing-based story and it's really about the non-romantic relatinship makes it gen. It's ambiguous.
(And thank you so much! Your feedback always make me feel all warm and fuzzy.)
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27/3/05 18:16 (UTC)Also, while I was reading this I wasn't--well, i actually wasn't labelling it at all, come to think of it. I've tried to move away from labelling most of my own stories, apart from giving the specific pairing occasionally, because what it comes down to is that most stories in my head are about the specific people involved, and sometimes they're gay and sometimes they're bi and sometimes they're straight. Ultimately, though, I feel like the point (one of the points?) of what we're doing here, is showing that those labels don't really mean much when it comes down to it.
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27/3/05 20:02 (UTC)(no subject)
27/3/05 19:09 (UTC)This is kind of the same problem I was having when attempting the ten pairings meme. I'm not that naturally pairing oriented, and het/slash/gen and pairing labels generally don't mean that much to. I find them restricting.
Personally, when I'm writing, I'm not writing the pairing. I'm writing a story about a character or characters, and if there happens to be a pairing in there, then so be it.
I think that the difference for me is whether the character has been written about through the pairing, or whether the pairing has been written about through the character.
To me, if you're writing the pairing(s) through the character, then gen/het/slash labels are restricting, because it's a story about the character, not about any particular pairing. Of course, I have no preference for gen, or het, or slash -- people who eschew one or another confuse me a little, because I just want to read well-written stories.
This could just be because of the way I tend to write, of course. I hate putting pairings or labels on my stories, even though I know that this is quite probably lowering the number of readers I get. (That and the silly pen name, which in my own defence I picked at the age of 15.) What I see as RayK/Fraser, others might see as gen, or preslash. What I wrote as gen, others might interpret as sneaky slash. For example, I wrote this one story called "Like Some Strange Shadow (http://www.livejournal.com/users/cherryice/115181.html)", which I ended up labelling as RayK/Fraser; but there was RayK/Fraser, but there was also RayK/Stella, and RayK/OMC, and RayV/Stella. More than anything else, it was a story about RayK.
I don't want to make these calls for people -- when something is a pairing, if the pairing is relevant -- I want them to process these things on their own. There are things I leave deliberately vague, or times I deliberately use imagery instead of words, because I want people to interpret these things in their own way. After all, we write fic because there are things we saw differently, or things that grabbed our imagination.
I don't generally meta. Hopefully this made some sense.
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27/3/05 20:08 (UTC)Most of the time I think I don't, really, mind the pairings or labels so much -- usually it's sort of clear in my mind, at least, what the story is, and I don't mind that so much. Whether other people agree with me is up to them, really. I mentioned one of my Firefly stories in my comment to
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29/3/05 07:08 (UTC)(no subject)
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29/3/05 14:51 (UTC)(Oh, and the fandom was Wilby Wonderful (http://imdb.com/title/tt0383717/).)
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27/3/05 19:27 (UTC)but i don't ship them, so please do not hate me. i don't know if i particularly ship anyone outside of remus/sirius and aubrey/maturin and those are both canon (hey, they are in my head anyway). and i certainly don't write them as an attempt to straighten tara. (i don't know if it is possible for me to emphasize that enough). i write them because the potential those two people have for character interaction is interesting to me. which is the main reason i write slash, of course, that i like exploring what two characters might be to each other. am all about character.
of course, my definition of a pairing is amazingly fluid. for me a pairing is really just the two main characters in a story, and not any sort of guarantee that they will each see the other in a romantic light. really, i am just all about the angst and often about one side of the pairing being solidly friendship and the other side hoping for something more that will probably never come. sometimes i go back and forth on whether a pairing should have a slash or a comma between the names.
(this is all half-formed because i have not yet had coffee. must fix that.)
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27/3/05 19:33 (UTC)(no subject)
27/3/05 20:13 (UTC)Heeee. Honestly, I think that was another reason I felt weird about the het label for this particular story. Like het + Duck = judging me in that same way and assuming the story is sucky and skipping it over.
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29/3/05 13:01 (UTC)(no subject)
27/3/05 20:00 (UTC)And actually, the thing about pairings is I'm usually fairly broad on what I consider a pairing to be. There are stories of mine that I do consider het or slash where the pairing is, really, just as subtextual as the canon source (some of my Simon/River, for example, can totally be read as gen if you choose to, but in my head it's definitely incest). So I'm not sure what that does to the topic, as well. Besides, you know, again showing the frustration of the labels in general.
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27/3/05 19:35 (UTC)Yeah, me, too. Same, as you note later, with Tara/m ships. I'm all for the fluidity of gender and sexuality, but there's another dimension of what we're choosing to represent that always bugs me on an abstract level.
*babbles because I don't know Wilby*
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27/3/05 19:37 (UTC)Except
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28/3/05 01:15 (UTC)EEEE! I love those.
Mail me? Please? *puppy eyes*
I'm going to see WW, but not for awhile, and I'm willing to be spoiled if it means Di!mail.
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27/3/05 19:40 (UTC)And that's uncomfortable as HELL... especially when I flip the switch a little. After all, it's not like tons of the characters I write are canonically straight -- as opposed to just/"just" only dating people of the opposite sex -- but some of them *are*.
If I ignore that for the subtext, I *ought* to ignore canonical homosexuality... if only to avoid hypocrisy. And yet...
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27/3/05 20:12 (UTC)That's exactly it, dude. It's just -- I think most slash writers can and do write slash where it's not presented as a rejection of heterosexuality and that queerness is the only valid way to live. But it seems like doing the same thing with queer characters automatically brings up the disturbing subtext.
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27/3/05 22:14 (UTC)But Spike's magic penis can do *anything*!
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28/3/05 02:18 (UTC)(no subject)
27/3/05 22:18 (UTC)You're right, it's really interesting how writing gay characters as straight has totally different connotations than writing straight characters as queer; I'm all about doing the latter, if the story's good, but I do feel a little like I should put in a little note about how I'm not being ANTI-gay omg. It can be so interesting or so propaganda-y.
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28/3/05 02:12 (UTC)See, that's pretty much exactly the reasons why I was doubting my motives so much in this case -- because I am pretty sure if it was queer sex I would label the story as slash without even thinking about it. So basically my brain is being completely inconsistent, which is one of the reasons I was trying to explain what it was thinking.
...Also, you are also one of the authors I'm pretty sure I would trust to write het about queer characters, because you'd think through all the implications, etc, and not just have it be "YAY, [dick/pussy, choose one]!"
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30/3/05 01:38 (UTC)I read this and wonder - *are* there writers who would write het about canonically queer characters and *not* think through the implications and *then* write?
And then I think of all the slash writers who do *exactly* that in some fandoms (only of course it's writing canonically straight/assumed to be straight characters as queer in this situation) and I realise that, sadly, yes, there are writers who would do that. And maybe once in a blue moon they'd succeed through good writing, hitting the reader on the right day, playing to a particular kink...but usually? They wouldn't succeed at all, because generally, unless there's a good reason, I personally don't grok fic that ignores canonical preferences without at least a nod to them. Considering that I can take a nod as one line, not really too much to ask.
But then when there's subtext or possibilities for het *even with* canonically queer characters that *isn't* just "put canonically queer character with partner of the opposite sex"? I wish there *was* more fic about it in my fandoms.
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27/3/05 23:57 (UTC)So, I didn't really take any notice of the label. But I read the story as being about that awful, confusing, hormonally driven teenage time of life when (in my experience) we're so confused by our hormones that we make dumb decisions. (Being an adult now, of course I never make dumb decisions any more!) I really didn't take any notice of the label, because it's a story about Duck and Sandra and what happened to them. And thinking about it now, the fact that we know Duck is gay because WW tells us so, means that (for me) this was not so much about his journey, as Sandra's, and the possibility that she discovers when Duck hugs her.
Putting labels on stories is a hard one, because so many readers do want them. But then, it's your story, so I personally feel that you should 'label' it how you please.
Gorgeous story btw! I didn't have a chance to comment earlier.
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28/3/05 02:14 (UTC)Which is totally it, of course, and that's more accurate than any of the labels could be. I do think, in theory, labels serve a useful role, but ... it's complicated. Muchly so.
(And thank you so much!)
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28/3/05 00:16 (UTC)I see the story more of an affirmation of the character of Duck. How, even though he is a teenager, he's still more grounded and centred than his peers.
And I haven't yet seen the movie, so I probably don't even get half of it.
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28/3/05 02:15 (UTC)*nod* See, that's really true, too, definitely, and I was thinking about that. But like I was saying to
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28/3/05 16:13 (UTC)but here's one thing i haven't seen mentioned, because this is how i am: who gives a flying fuck what labels readers want? it's your story. label it, don't label it, summarize it, don't, lie to us like the WB about what is actually going to happen -- this is the part you get to control. they'll decide both if they want to read and how they'll react, but you can't really do anything about any of those parts.
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28/3/05 18:35 (UTC)*grins* This really is an excellent point, yeah. I find that sometimes I feel just the way you're saying there, and in a lot of my stories, I do try not ot give that much information or categorize them, just leave it out there for whatever readers want to do with it. Occasionally, though, I do care -- in that read me! I'm making it as easy for you as possible! way.
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29/3/05 15:55 (UTC)http://www.livejournal.com/~vamplover84/261505.html
In it Shrift comments that she goes with the author's categorization, even if she doesn't agree. IF i disagree, I say so. I do think Amorette's SS/HP story is gen. If she were to write more in the series, and if I were rec it again, I'd label it pre-slash.
I read your story, and I think if I had to categorize it, it would be het, not gen, because they actually had sex. If it had been a kiss, and Sandra had that epiphany, I'd say gen.
Why does the sex make such a differnece? I dunno, it just does.
If this had been a m/m story with a kiss, I'd also say that would be gen, not slash.
I did like your WW story--but my feedback will go on that post.
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29/3/05 17:26 (UTC)Why does the sex make such a differnece? I dunno, it just does.
Hee. Yes. It's hard to get a more tied-down reason than that for any of it, right?