schmerica. most of you don't want to read this, but the ones who do? REALLY DO

So, okay. Before we start?

1) This is chat fic, between me and

lordessrenegade, and not a real story.

2) This is Waycest.

3) This is an AU where Mikey is and has always been a girl.

4) This has Mikey as underage and engaging in sexual activities.

With all those warnings clearly stated ... HI THERE, the ten of you who are left! Let us show you our pervertedness. Our pervertedness, let us show you it. Possibly Jai and I really love our brains; you might too.

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lordessrenegade: and oh man, girl Mikey would totally have such a crush on Gerard, and be so awkward about it.

lordessrenegade: *squishes her* (really, she'd just be such an awkward girl in general. it'd be endearing!)

pearl_o: oh, man.

pearl_o: it's just. it's Gee. he's the best!

lordessrenegade: he is!

lordessrenegade: how can you not crush on him??

pearl_o: and compared to the boys at school? who are all either just douches, or, like. Mikey hangs out with a) the Geek boys and b) the music dudes, but they're just as bad in their own ways. like, they complain about how society judges them and girls just want the popular boys and all this stuff, but they're still all fetishizing blonde supermodels with giant tits and superheroines in catsuits.

pearl_o: Gerard tells Mikey she's pretty. and perfect. and smart.

lordessrenegade: (and the thing is, he doesn't just say that. he believes it. she can tell.)

pearl_o: right! he's not just saying it to make her feel better.

lordessrenegade: he honestly thinks that she's pretty much the most awesome girl in the world.

pearl_o: things Gerard has taught Mikey: a) all the best comic books. b) how to put on eyeliner. c) how to kick dudes in the balls and spit in their face if they ever make comments about her or try something she doesn't want. d) all the words to every abba song.

lordessrenegade: and i mean, sometimes she kinda wants to hate him for teaching her all those things and single-handedly making her into the biggest dorkface ever....but mostly she just really loves him for it. (she's a little afraid that he was trying to make boys not like her, though, since it's not like she has an older brother who can scare them away. Gee's not exactly all that intimidating.)

pearl_o: she's not sure Gerard is that cunning, though, actually.

pearl_o: Gerard tells her that when she gets to college, it'll be awesome, because she'll be with all the other freaks. there's nothing hotter than a girl with comic book and action figures and video games! she's the kind of girl he would date.

lordessrenegade: (she's kind of sick of being the kind of girl he'd date, but not a girl he would date.)

lordessrenegade: because really? let's face it, Gee would be an awesome boyfriend. he's a great brother! but...really, he's the kind of boy she wants to date too.

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She comes home from some lame party one night, and Gee is in the basement drawing comic sketches, and he looks up and is like "hey, what's wrong?" and she just shrugs miserably. and he holds out his arms and she goes and sits on his lap and tucks her face into his neck while he holds her really close in a hug.

And that's the point where Mikey can't hold it in anymore and kisses him, really light and sweetly.

And he just kisses back a little and then goes to pull away (because it's not like she's never kissed him before, but it's been years and years and usually it's on the cheek), but she wraps her hand around the back of his neck and holds him there to let him know that no, this isn't one of those kisses.

And when he pulls away again Mikey can't even look at him, she just turns her face into his shoulder and she wants, she wants to just die, because. She just did that, and Gerard doesn't... but Gerard just says, softly, "Hey. Mikey. Hey." and strokes her hair.

And she doesn't want to look at him, because if she does, she'll know exactly what he's thinking, so she just stays there, burying her face against his shirt and feeling his fingers in her hair, and when he says her name again he sounds so worried that she just has to look at him.

Gerard's eyes are big, and clear, and ... not sad, but thoughtful. And he says, "It's okay, Mikey. I promise, it's okay," in this voice where she has to believe him. and she just nods, dumbly. And after a moment, Gerard slowly leans in again and presses his mouth to hers.

His arm is still wrapped around her waist, and she curls hers around his neck and kisses him back, and it's soft and slow but intense, and she wants to laugh a little because of course it's intense, it's Gerard, but then she realizes that hi, she's kissing Gerard, and he's kissing her back, and suddenly laughing is the last thing she feels like doing.

The handful of other boys Mikey's kissed had been okay, but nothing really special, kind of slobbery and either really shy or really aggressive, but Gerard isn't either. Her breasts are squashed a little against his chest when they're pressed together, and it feels good, but part of her wishes he would put his hand up her shirt and touch her. But Gerard's keeping it slow, slow and easy, and it's like being drugged, or pulled under the tide.

She wants to get closer, touch him more, but it's nearly impossible without getting up and straddling his lap, so instead she moves a hand down around behind him, splaying it across his back to pull him against her, the tips of her fingers just barely grazing the bare skin where his shirt has ridden up against the chair.

He's so warm. She feels so warm, too, all over.

Gerard finally moves his hand from her hair, and he places it on her knees, and she wore a skirt to the party, so it's Gerard's hand on her bare skin, and when he strokes his thumb just a tiny bit, light against the skin of her thigh, she gasps away from the kiss and just shakes.

His other arm tightens around her, holding her. "Hey," he whispers, nervous and reassuring all at the same time, "is this...?"

And he almost moves to pull his hand back, but she grabs his wrist, holding it there, feeling his pulse beating rapidly against her fingers.

"Yes," she tells him, before kissing him again. "yes."

He's still kissing her, and Mikey feels like at some point the universe went off track, because this can't really be happening, but she doesn't care, because Gerard is kissing her, and his hand is warm between her thighs, and she doesn't want this to ever end, for the real world to begin again.

*****

pearl_o: i feel as though they continue making out for a bit, and then Gerard gets Mikey off with his hand? and then doesn't let her touch him, just says it's okay, and maybe she should get to bed. and he gives her another peck, then, so it doesn't feel like a rejection, exactly, and says something about how he's gonna get another soda and maybe draw for a while more. so Mikey goes to bed and, uh, probably masturbates for a while before she goes to sleep.

lordessrenegade: awwwww, Gee is all trying to not take advantage of her *loves him*

lordessrenegade: to the point where she eventually has to be all not-at-all-subtle about HI I REALLY KINDA WANT TO BLOW YOU A LOT.

lordessrenegade: and he's torn because hi, it's not like he doesn't want her to. but...he kinda thinks he might be an awful person if he lets her.

pearl_o: "If you really don't want to, it's okay -- well, it's not okay, but fine, whatever. But if you're just being, like, you think I'm too young or you're doing something to me, it's not. I want to. I really. It's not like that."

*****

Sometime in the time period when they've started fooling around, he takes her to Rocky Horror. And she's technically still sixteen, so she shouldn't get into R-rated movies, but it turns out okay.

At home she sits on the toilet when Gerard does all her make up, and then his own, and she's wearing a corset and a miniskirt and giant boots, and she looks like a completely different person in the mirror. She looks like somebody hot, she thinks. And Gerard wraps his arms around her, and she thinks i'm a hot girl, with a hot boyfriend who wears skirts.

And, you know, at the show, it's okay to do whatever they want. Everyone's doing whatever they want. Gerard licks whipped cream out of her cleavage and she licks his ear while he sings along during the slow songs.

After the show they go out to a diner and have milkshakes and cheese fries at three am, and they're both high and giddy in that way you get when you're up that late at night, and Mikey thinks it's just really the most perfect night ever. and she wonders what could happen when they get home.

And she rests her legs on top of Gerard's in the restaurant, and he just sits
there, talking, while his fingers are playing with the top of her boots and driving her slowly out of her mind until she just has to lean over and kiss him, right there in the diner. When she pulls away, he's blushing a little and seems to have completely forgotten what he was saying, and she grins, pleased that she can be the one who makes him look like that.

When they get home, she's really really hoping Gerard will actually fuck her; she thinks this might be the night, and there's butterflies in her stomach as they go down to the basement and lock the door. but that's the one thing that Gerard just, like, flatout refuses. because he is the most paranoid guy in the world, and if she got pregnant he would have to kill himself. But everything else she can convince him is fair game, and that night he just goes down on her, for forever, until she is sweaty and limp and exhausted.

*****

pearl_o: sometimes at school Mikey hangs out with other girls and they things about their boyfriends and Mikey wants to say something about how great Gerard is, and she can't. and she mentions how awesome her brother is sometimes, but she knows other people don't really get it.

lordessrenegade: she eventually starts telling stories about Gerard and saying "my boyfriend," but eventually her friends want to meet this mystery guy, so she has to tell them that they've broken up so they stop asking.

lordessrenegade: (it hurts even saying the words, even thinking about 'breaking up' with Gerard, and when she goes home that night she curls up next to him as he draws and rests her head in his lap, just to remind herself that she was lying, that she still has this.)

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sociofemme.livejournal.com

nooooooo don't make me like incest! You guys, you're breaking me, okay.

more pls?

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Ahahaha. We weren't making a conversion effort, I swear!

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