i confuse myself
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schmericaSo when I was in Smallville fandom, shipping Clark and Lex, there was always, always the background thought of "they are doomed. Doomed, doomed, doomed." Knowing this didn't keep me from reading or writing or enjoying hopeful or happy fic, but the knowledge was always there, still.
It occurs to me that I feel precisely the opposite in the case of due South fiction, with much less justification. Which is to say, basically, that I can read and love all the unhappy or badly-ending or depressing F/K in the world, but at the end, the back of my head still thinks "But really, they lived Happily Ever After."
Which, really, is all the fault of Call of the Wild. I mean, I adore them madly and think them slashy for the rest of their episodes together, but it's the finale that really cements my view of everything. And I've talked about my thoughts on CotW in rather long blithering length elsewhere, but it kind of just comes down to two things:
a) At some point, Benton Fraser has become the single most important thing in Ray Kowalski's life
and b) Benton Fraser deserves and gets his Happy Ending. Peace, family, justice, home.
So, I can read the really depressing F/K post-CotW stories, and they'll break me and kill my soul, but it doesn't stick, somehow, because for whatever reason I can't view this episode and not believe somehow they manage to live Happily Ever After. Whatever that means, I suppose -- and there's a large range of variation there, I think.
[None of this has anything to do with my weird post-Perfect-Strangers-viewing-and-talking-to-Livia desire to read Fraser/RayK kidfic. *shame*]
It occurs to me that I feel precisely the opposite in the case of due South fiction, with much less justification. Which is to say, basically, that I can read and love all the unhappy or badly-ending or depressing F/K in the world, but at the end, the back of my head still thinks "But really, they lived Happily Ever After."
Which, really, is all the fault of Call of the Wild. I mean, I adore them madly and think them slashy for the rest of their episodes together, but it's the finale that really cements my view of everything. And I've talked about my thoughts on CotW in rather long blithering length elsewhere, but it kind of just comes down to two things:
a) At some point, Benton Fraser has become the single most important thing in Ray Kowalski's life
and b) Benton Fraser deserves and gets his Happy Ending. Peace, family, justice, home.
So, I can read the really depressing F/K post-CotW stories, and they'll break me and kill my soul, but it doesn't stick, somehow, because for whatever reason I can't view this episode and not believe somehow they manage to live Happily Ever After. Whatever that means, I suppose -- and there's a large range of variation there, I think.
[None of this has anything to do with my weird post-Perfect-Strangers-viewing-and-talking-to-Livia desire to read Fraser/RayK kidfic. *shame*]
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15/6/04 10:30 (UTC)Well, actually, I can buy the post-COTW stories where the whole Ray/Fraser thing falls apart, but I don't *want* to, and it definitely feels like AU to me. And makes me think of Ray/Ray.
But as far as I'm concerned, canon leaves Ray and Fraser finding their happily ever after.
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15/6/04 10:49 (UTC)And even though I LOVE reading and writing Ray/Ray, Fraser and RayK ultimately belong together. Because Ray Vecchio belongs with me. Ummm...I mean a female character heavily based on me. Ummmm...I mean....never mind. ::hands head in shame::
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15/6/04 14:36 (UTC)I can totally buy it within the context of individual stories and things -- it just doesn't change my base perception, I guess? I think someone on discourse was talking the other day how they were afraid to read this one very very very good F/K-falling-apart fic, because they thought it would just make them suddenly "oh. They're doomed. So doomed. I can't see it any other way now." While when I read that story, yes, it breaks me for a while -- but then I watch or think about CotW again, and it bounces back to this view of them.