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[schmerica]

It just struck eight am here, and between this morning and last-night-when-I-should-have-been-sleeping-already, there's been cesperanza's brilliant new story, and lynnmonster's lovely flashfiction, and katallison's cool comments in these two posts about Ray/Ray and fandom in general.

Kat's thoughts, by the way, have me pondering again over Ray/Ray -- because it's something I've read quite a bit of and enjoyed, and like the description and concept of, but still doesn't really work for me. Maybe it comes down to the difference between me and, say, estrella30 here -- which is a thought I've heard from a couple of different people, only -- I *do* think F/K will work when I look at it closely; that's the whole reason I'm able to write it, anyway, is because I actually believe in it, taking all their flaws and annoyances and differences into account.

Or maybe it has to do with the fact that my primary investment does seem to be in Fraser, in a way it's not for the other characters, as much as I do adore them. I've talked before about that some, about how CotW is permanently fixed in my mind as Fraser's Happy Ending, Goddammmit. I mean, if the character you're most interested isn't, you know, *there*, it's not going to grab you as much. (For that matter, the Ray/Ray stories that do tend to work for me the most are the ones where he does play a large role, whether or not he actually appears.)

And then of course there's what Kat says in the second entry -- Ray/Ray slash is at its heart autumnal, it's about middle age -- which, hmm, raises the possibility that maybe it is a function of my youth, to some degree. I don't know if that's an aesthetic a nineteen or twenty year old *can* really appreciate. (But that's wrong, because there are plenty of people my age who dig them, so I don't quite know what I mean. Maturity, maybe, rather than youth?)

And, of course, there's always the possibility there isn't actually a reason. Maybe it's just not clicking.

Comments

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

*nod nod* It's true. But still, I'd like to have more... *sense* that Fraser, in the absence of his Rays, has perhaps begun to find a way to come to terms with his solitude. To *be* a solitary person, as opposed to one who is merely alone.

*nods* Yes, I get that. And actually, that's making me think of Kat's darkness ds_flashfiction entry -- the coda to End of the Road. Which, um, I can't reread at the moment because, you know, I have to ration myself on the brilliant brilliant PAIN -- but yeah, Fraser, post-Ray, solitary but with that acceptance.