it's like a happily ever after, sort of

[schmerica]

fox1013 is mocking me. Just because I told her I was in the kind of mood where I just wanted to read a nice long story that fits some of my kinks! Like maybe something with Fraser and Kowalski together in Canada, ten years post-CotW. (That would be this CKR in my head, of course). And Dief is still around, but he's getting old, so he spends a lot of time just lying in his bed in the corner of the room. And Fraser is dying of something slow and unyielding like cancer, and Vecchio comes up to visit him for what's probably the last time. And Vecchio and Fraser would have lots of long talks over tea and coffee about things, and Fraser would be weirdly calm and just nostalgic and stuff. And Ray Kowalski would be in a permanently snarly, ornery mood whenever Vecchio sees him, just angry, and trying to take care of Fraser and pretend nothing's changed at the same time. I don't know that Vecchio would be able to see any of the softness, the big mushy center under Kowalski's shell where he's horribly, painfully in love with Fraser; if he does, it would be a brief glimpse, and it would be by accident, and it'd be one of those things that are so intimate you're embarrassed.

Number of people besides me I estimate would be interested in this story: maybe three? At most? Heh.

I don't know why I'm not up to writing any of the stories I want to read, man. If I'm not able to do that, at least I should have a minion to write things for me, right? Right!

(Contrary to Fox's assumption, this is me in an EXCELLENT mood.)

Comments

[minervacat.livejournal.com]

DID YOU COUNT ME IN YOUR ESTIMATE OF THREE PEOPLE? because i would TOTALLY read that story right now. instead i'm making do with epic jack/daniel h/c fic in sg-1, and none of them quite scratch the same itch that that story would scratch. GOD WHY DOES THAT STORY NOT EXIST.

now i'm going to be all cranky all night because i can't read that story. MAN.

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

I did not include you in my estimate, but I will now!

I am sorry I made you cranky. I try to get over the being annoyed it doesn't exist by twirling it around in my head over and over. It's not the same, but it's still vaguely satisfying.

[minervacat.livejournal.com]

well, i have found the motherload of jack/daniel h/c badfic, which will keep me amused and occupied for a while, but after that, i'm totally going to lie on the couch and contemplate your story. i really feel that it couldn't be done justice in less than, oh, 40 or 50,00 words, and that thought alone makes it a sort of happy place to twirl around for a while.

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

Seriously, this is the best fodder for wallowing I've come across in a long time. Sigh!